Monday, September 17, 2007
I have so many things to complete. Blogging is the last thing i should be doing now. But..crap. i really don't know what i'm doing anymore. I feel stuck in a cycle of endless busy-ness. I"m always tired and cranky and have not much of a life to speak of anymore. What's the point in all that? I don't even go home during weekends anymore, except for like 2 hours to take my stuff.
Last crit i got shot at by my tutor. Sux. i don't like her. Tomorrow's my next crit with her. And i'm still more than half unfinished. I can't believe i'm still blogging! i keep getting stuck at my ideas because everytime i think of an idea, her face just pops up in my head and i can imagine the nasty things she'll say. It's affecting me! because there'll always be fault with my ideas. ugh.
Oh. At least 11 people have quit already. I don't want to give in just like that. I really wonder how other people do it. It's killing me! especially with hall life. But i want a life out of archi. I love hall life.
AHH..! I feel like i'm slowly slipping away into depression.. What am i doing?
4:39 AM
Friday, August 24, 2007
I've been BUSY.
Finally, found some time to update. And it's not because i don't have work! I'm having a self-declared break! ALOT of things has happened since i last blogged, so mush so i don't know where to begin. I shall just be totally random and say whatever comes to my mind. HALL LIFE ROCKS! Haha. I've fallen in love with it. Met alot of really nice people! And lotsa sports!! Imagine waking up in the morning to throw softball before sch, and then coming back in the evening to play frisbee or something. FUN.
Although i can't always participate in the hall stuff because AKI is a crazy course. Judging from what i heard from my seniors and people's faces when i tell them i'm studying architecture, I knew it was going to be bad but the first day of sch still hit me like a punch. 11 A1 sheets of drawing to be done in 2 days 3 nights. Utter madness. Going back to hall on the first day of sch and hearing how everyone had a slack first day was torture. Lol. 2nd day of school only and i was staying over at the studio till 7am the next day. NO LIFE. Haha. my studio mates and i were discussing this and we were saying what if even after having NO LIFE we still cannot cope! So for approximately 2 days and 2 nights consecutively i just sat there drawing and drawing. Initially i was extremely sullen and all but after i got the hang of it, i know this sounds weird, but i actually enjoyed it, slowly pulling the pen along with every slick stroke. Staying over at the studio wasn't all that bad, the people there can get pretty crappy with the lack of sleep. Haha.
Btw..i know at least 3 people who have already quit. And it's only the 2nd week of sch.
Currently on my 2nd project. Sometimes it feels like i'm taking art. But that's not a bad thing really. I guess we have to start from the basics, and i've always wanted a chance to learn art. It has only been 2 weeks but i'm already beginning to see things around me differently. Noticing details, appreciating beauty, looking at things in a different light. Besides all the stress of rushing my work, i guess i really do like what i am studying. I even like the physics [structural systems]. Have always been terrible at time management, hope i at least learn how to after 5years of crazy deadlines!
In the midst of IBG [inter blk games] now, i missed the first few matches because of a night lecture and rushing my proj. i shall plan my time so i can participate!! Haha. Everytime i go back to hall after rushing my proj, people will be like 'finally see u again!' or 'where have u disappeared to?'. Oh.. and in hall u really get to try alot of sports! And i find that doing sports in the morning really keeps u going throughout the day. It makes u happy!
Man, this is going to be a long entry. I have so much to talk about. Oh yea, i haven't mentioned orientation. It was pretty good getting to know people in hall and bonding and stuff. I slept less than 4 hours a day the entire 2 weeks. Staying up to go for supper, play sports, help each other with dating game stuff. Oh yea this dating game thing is a traditional kr orientation game. Basically, the freshies have to woo a senior to the formal dinner. People end up doing things that they have nv thought they would ever do, like going on stage to perform, making goodnight messages out of tealights, cooking breakfast and so on. I wasn't so daring though. Just did a painting, made flowers and decorated his room door. I ended up helping friends alot more with they're dates. It was an experience and i had a pretty good date. It was his last dating game and my first. We had quite a bit in common so we had alot to talk about throughout dinner and all.
I started throwing softball again after such a long time! Daniel has gloves so sometimes when i feel like it i would go and throw ball with him or ian. Feels great. Kinda looking for to IHG [interhall games] training. I want to play softball. Didn't go back to tpjc that day for the friendly match because i had to do my proj. Wish i did! Haven't seen the softballers in quite a long while. Nana!
I've been too busy to think about STUFF much. Actually, i don't really want to think about it. I know i'm cruel and selfish but i'm pretty sure of what i want now. Just want to concentrate on my studies and still manage to enjoy some hall life. Being in hall can be really comforting. When i wasn't feeling great, the people were all so caring and sweet and stuff. Yup.
Oh..and i'm terribly sorry to all those people whom i PSed! All the outings said i would go for and missed in the end! All the FR meetings i missed! And especially to suyuan! Sorry i'm always not free when u ask me out!!! Haven't really gotten the chance to meet up in a long time. Didn't even get to talk to u much at the last class outing. And yiting too! although it seems u are enjoying yourself alot in NTU. I have loads to tell you girl.
Need to get started on my work soon. Will post pictures when i'm free again.
Jia You Lien! =)
10:52 AM
Friday, July 27, 2007
I'm seriously getting very short fused. That's bad.
Stayed home to settle all the NUS form filling and stuff. I got all snappish and cranky when i spent about half an hour trying to find the tuition grant application form. Honestly, this is the first time i'm settling everything by myself. I'm trying as best as i can to organise everything i'm supposed to do and get them done before the deadlines, considering the SCATTERBRAIN that i am. A fact that was apparent to my teacher even in pri 3. I just hope i don't forget anything or miss any deadlines, like when i forgot to send in my acceptance letter!
I realised i have this habit of constantly making lists. Although i still end up forgetting to do stuff. Oh well, probably just a feeble attempt to organise my life a little.
Still haven't starting packing for hall yet. I have to get everything done today because tomorrow will be taken up by NDP preview. Yay. Pretty much enjoying these NDP stuff. Love the fireworks! Although this would be my 4th time watching the fireworks, it never fails to make me go gaagaa over it!
9:21 PM
It has been awhile since i last doodled on paint. Haha. Hmm..something's missing right? Lol. *winks*
Thursday, July 26, 2007
HIGHLIGHT of the day. My hair got sucked in the back of the hairdryer and tangled. I lost a clump. :(
Met up with yt to shop for clothes for uni. I finally realised the convenience of having a school uniform. I don't have enough clothes! Lol. And i just love the feeling of laughing and going crazy with her! We MUST not drift apart when school starts k?
Oh. My first visit to the asian civilisation musuem with sy qy yz on tues. Especially liked the asian beauty exhibit. And we took lotsa photos! Haha. But i don't have any with me now because i forgot to save them.
I really miss sentosa! And all the khakis! I really feel like i'm missing out on so much everytime i read their blogs and all. And worse still, i'm not getting any fairer! Lol.
Hmm..feeling pretty excited about school starting. But a little apprehensive too. You never know how things may turn out. Moving into hall this sunday! Gonna get in touch with the west side. Lol. Haven't packed yet!
11:49 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Photos of NDP! Stolen from my groupmate. Haha. I think they're really great photos! Some people can just take such wow photos and with a camera phone! I'm envious. Haha.
1:01 AM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I am TIRED. Very. I realised i'm having activity after activity after activity.. It's always so late and i'm always so tired by the time i get home. So much so i haven't gotten down to de-messing my room, reading my library books, reading everyone's blogs, replying emails and just plain slacking! But at least i'm enjoying myself and that's what really matters. Alot alot of things on my mind that i want to talk about, but i'm already half asleep.. Well, basically..1) HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAYAN! Hope u enjoyed the bbq and stayover! Even though this year most of your birthday was spent doing NDP stuff. And..most importantly, i love u!! :)2) I love OR1! Fun and crazy group! It's really great that we are getting more bonded with each rehearsal or NE show and all. 3) Helping out at the leadership camp in queenstown sec was an eye-opener. The kids were extremely rowdy and used really 'colourful' language. Not to mention the utter disrepect alot of them had. A whole new experience for me, having to maintain order and taking charge of things. Honestly, i got really exasperated at times. And i actually acted infront of a whole level of students without feeling shy at all. Quite unlike me. Haha. Well, i learn.4) 3 coincidences at the aki camp: My secret pal had the same birthday as me. My groupmate was a bay ambassador at NDP too. Another of my groupmates stays on the same street and same blk and same level i used to stay at. [Knew his mum and family but i've never seen him around]I can go on forever about the things that have happened around me lately, but i'm ending here before i fall asleep infront of the com. Rah.
1:41 AM
